twitter has been so convenient, it has taken over this space fo sure!

2010 is here and i have decided no new years resolution for me this time round, they're broken even before i could wrap the whole list up. why bother

few things that highlighted my year;

• this lazy ass managed to pass and graduate (never been the booksmart type)
• got stuck in batam for my entire birthday
• had a pretty sweet surprise & memorable post bday celebration
• relapsed the day after i turned 20

cant think of anything else, really

so, i relapsed. this have never been and will never be a favourite topic for me to discuss. its borderline awkward and depressing. Its something that is has been very difficult for me to come to terms with. Actually i am not all sure i've come to terms with.

There is no easy way to express it and sometimes depressing really. When i sit and think about it, trying to 'accept it' just makes me want to bawl my eyes off.

Most of the time i feel that i would rather die doing something that i love than live and be restricted. Yes, thats really selfish on my part, i know. But basically in a nutshell, i'm alive and i can't do anything that i love. Like swimming or cycling or even just go to the theme park and have a good time.

this is making it worst